Ive always been an indecisive person .. like seriously one of the most indecisive people on the planet most people would probably agree. This was true when it came to sports, schools, clothes, pretty much anything to do with my life I could never choose what I wanted.
Ill let you know this is probably what makes my life so stressful but when I finally decided what I would want I usually had a breakthrough moment and everything turned out the way I would want them to.
This is no different now that I am in college ..
many people go through high school knowing exactly what they want to study when they move on to college, I was no different. I went through a career tech program during high school in hopes to help with my dream of becoming a sports reporter for ESPN. That was until my senior year when I realized that wasn't for me, although I still had a HUGE passion for sports it was not something I could see myself spending my life doing.
Flash forward to choosing colleges. I decided going to a community college would be the smartest approach to planning what I wanted to do (not to mention the cheapest). I went through an entire year doing general classes figuring out what I liked to do. I decided that I loved planning events and especially loved weddings and thought this could be a perfect career for me to go into! After finishing a year and a half of classes and only having one semester left I realized I'm not sure if this is what I want to do. That means onto deciding what to do next..
Throughout my life I have always had a love for the ocean, so with that I decided marine biology would be perfect for me! I found a school that offered marine biology and decided to go through with it. I loved everything about this school and the program the only downside was 50,000 dollars is way to much to be paying for one year of school. Plus I was so far behind I would have been there for three or more years.. not something I wanted to do on the price. So with that I started looking into other schools that had marine biology programs. This was hard seeing as I did not want to leave the state and we are no where near a beach.
I ended up at a school that was right by my house and WAYY less than the price of the last school and ended up working for my degree in biology. After a year and a half of going through this program I hit a road block.
Your probably thinking to yourself "why is she rambling on about her life, where is the tip part of this whole speel?" Well to get to that you have to see what changes I've been making to get to this point.
Now I am a semester behind and all my friends have graduated and have "big people jobs" and I am still struggling through college..
I decided to talk to my counselor about what is all going on and here is where the breakthrough happened ..
I started crying in his office because he made me fill out a paper of why I am struggling so much, he then showed me and I realized I am not doing what I want to be doing! I don't want to do biology I wanted to do marine biology or anything to do with the ocean! THATS A HUGE DIFFERENCE!
Well as soon as next semester starts I will be a business student!
Again your saying "and this has to do with anyone else because... "
Well let me tell you ..
People get so far into something then realize they do not like doing that anymore. They think I spent so much money and time on this I can't just quit or move to something else.
YES YOU CAN AND YOU SHOULD!!
I say this because I know from experience that yes it will push you back but
ask yourself this ..
"Would I rather be save money and time but be stuck doing something I hate for the rest of my life?" OR "Would I like to spend the money and time finding out something I love and love what I'm doing!"
PICK THE SECOND ONE!! PLEASE
You should never make a decision that will make you go through life thinking is this really what I want to do. Because if your asking yourself that then your probably making a bad decision.
It took me finally breaking down to make an appointment with my counselor or advisor to then go and have him show me I was making the wrong decision.
If you have any doubts TALK TO SOMEONE it may show you that you are doing something wrong!
Also don't let anyone pressure you into staying where you are at (IE PARENTS). My mom told me I was making a horrible mistake every time I changed what I wanted to do .. Well NEWS FLASH its your life not theres!
All I hope is that this post helped one person change there lives for the better when it came to school or even a career! If anyone has further questions I would love to help them!
XOXO Carissa Ann
